sorbetes na siling labuyo

since last night, i have been struggling to write four articles.  i find two of them extremely depressing in terms of topic. one is about marital separation and how to help children cope; the other is about abuse in intimate relationships. the process of researching and writing these stories remind me painfully that after riding into the sunset, most people find potholes, cliffs, hairpin turns, falling boulders, and various other hazards on the road to happy ever after. there is so much that can go wrong, so many mistakes that can be made, and so many people who can get hurt.

not to mention the millions of bad drivers on the highway (bike path?) of life.

I should be happy to be finally free.

I shouldn’t be depressed.

But I am.

And even if you associate with all the bimbos in the world,

I shouldn’t care.

But I do.

I should stop moping.

I’ve got a great life ahead.

I really should move on.

But I can’t.

Oo, aaminin ko na. Marami akong kinikimkim na ilusyon at ambiyson. Hindi ko lang ipinagsasabi dahil baka ma-unsyami.

Pero ngayon –kung kailan ang mga pangarap ay naghihingalo na– ngayon nagkaroon ng mga pagkakataon. Di ko sukat akalain.

Sana nga’y ito na ang umpisa ng tagmupay. Ipagdasal nyo po ako.